Like a bee.

Whew.

This past weekend was pretty much chockablock. I wrote my final paper for my much loathed Second Language Acquisition class. Submitted that. Went to Kristi's amazing art show. Enjoyed hanging out with my friends and seeing all the fruit of Kristi's labour. Then I went to a party and just hung with some people....'twas fun. Saturday I slept and took kind of a personal day. I've haven't been sleeping very well recently either. I dunno what it is. Maybe it's stress. Maybe it's the fact that I'm sharing a bed with a laundry basket. (How depressing.) Maybe it's the fact that I have 8 million and 1 things on my mind--of which 7 million of them are ridiculous and shouldn't even be on my mind. Oh well.

Today I have to write a 15 page-paper. Tuesday I have to write another one. Wednesday I proctor an exam. Grade the exams. Turn in the grades. Go to a meeting on Thursday and at some point, my mother wants me to come home via Columbus so I can pick up my brother. Oi. Busy busy.

So, I suppose I should go do those things that I need to do. I'm sure I'll be back here procrastinating later.

So, after a frustrating end to yesterday, I'm back to feeling strangely calm. I still have a lot to do, but it seems like a more conquerable mountain. I am not sure how my grades will actually end up (hopefully all passing...what happened to being scared of not getting an A? When did 'C' become a goal?) but I am not worried.

I don't know how it works: I worry a lot, but I'm not really a worrier. I think the fact that I can't really continue to worry about something for a long time causes me to consistently re-worry about things. I don't know if that makes sense.

So here's the breakdown:

1. Tonight (Tuesday): Write take-home final exam (4 questions, not very hard looking) for Phonetics.
2. Wednesday: Last day of classes, turn in Final I wrote the night before.
3. Thursday: Lost & The Office (HECK YES!)...plus, maybe some writing of a 10-pg paper
4. Friday: Writing that 10-pg paper I said I was going to write the day before. Submit it online by midnight.
5. Saturday: Nothing but sleeping-in and hanging-out (and other present participles with hyphenated prepositions)
6. Sunday: Church, God-Time, Small-Group, Writing a 15-page paper
7. Monday: Turning in 15-page paper. Writing another 15 page paper
8. Tuesday: Continuing to write that 15 page paper....and procrastinating
9. Wednesday: 7h30 Final Exam for my students, then lots of grading, then turning in that last paper and I'm done.

So it seems like alot...and it is...but it'll all work out.

w00t.

Content.

I'm feeling oddly positive.

But that's ok.

I've finished my last powerpoint presentation for this semester. (Yes!)

I have three more days of school and a lot to do in those days. But I'm feeling ok about it all. The three final paper, two exams, 75 compositions to grade, and 25 exams to grade seem like an actually conquerable mountain.

So...yay. That's good.

I had a good weekend. Busy, but it was good. AFAC went well and it was a great cause. Now I know what people are talking about since I wasn't at the last one. I hope we do another one in the fall. Saturday was also quite enjoyable with art gallery opening and hanginging out with awesome people. Today was kind of a personal day. Much needed and I got some stuff done for school. It was good.

So now, I'm (re-)watching the last episode of The Office and ready to go to bed content.

:)

This works on so many levels right now.

Freedom is a powerful thing.


But it comes with a price.


One must ask oneself: is freedom worth the price? Is it possible to sacrifice only a little for some freedom and still be content? Or are we made as human beings to desire pure freedom?

I think pure freedom might scare us.

But man, it sounds wonderful.

Pensive.

So I know I have 5 pages to write tonight, but I can't seem to get started. So I am going to procrastinate further by writing a blog entry. Don't you feel special.

Random thoughts currently going through my head:

• I bought new deodorant yesterday. It is a scent i have never tried before. I don't know if I like it.
• Sometimes I wish I had a laptop, sometimes I'm glad I have a desktop. Too bad I can't have both? lol
• I have very little due this week (one presentation), but I am behind on a few things, so this week feels really busy.
• The semester is almost over, Hallelujah.
• My friends in Gainesville are awesome. How did I come to deserve them? Wait, I don't. But that's cool that they are my friends anyway.
• I have this desire to be purely honest with everyone about everything. But I'm afraid it will come back and kick me in the arse.
• It's crazy the differences your life can be in after just one year. I wonder what the differences will be next year?

"Arrache-moi la tête, que je ne puisse savoir."

Weekend

Whew.

So this week is over. Time for the weekend. My birthday was Wednesday, but it feels more like today (Friday) is my birthday. I'm going out to eat with some friends, and then there's a party. It should be fun. :) I'm excited.

Another good thing I found about today, apparently, 2nd year MA students get paid .5 full time instead of .3 full time. This means that I get an extra 5000$ next year for teaching. Horray! This will be nice, since money has been quite tight recently. It's nice to have that little cushion...especially since I'm probably going to have to move after graduation and that's going to cost a pretty penny....

This weekend I have 5 short papers to write, a bibliography, and various projects I need to start/continue working on for next week. Oi.

I've also got to send my taxes in. I have them, I just keep forgetting to mail them in....

Oh, and I got into a class I didn't think I'd be able to take. Horray! Next semester should rock.

The 12 days between the end of the semester and the beginning of Summer A are going to be glorious.

Shower thoughts

All of my random deep thoughts come up either in the shower, while driving, or over coffee with a good friend.

Alright, so here's the thought; what do you think? :

If science is defined as an empiral study that uses a "method of discovering knowledge about the natural world based in making falsifiable predictions, testing them empirically, and developing peer-reviewed theories that best explain the known data" (Dictionary via Ninja Words)

And if faith is defined by "being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." or "the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; [something that] gives us assurance about things we cannot see." (Hebrews 1:11, NIV, NLT)

Then all the effort that goes into trying to prove God's existance or Christianity or anything else as such...is it all in vain? Is it actually going against what we need to be doing--just having faith? Can they coexist side by side?

What are your thoughts? Seriously. I'm curious.

Essentially, it was ridiculous.

I think this bout of sickness is nearing it's end. That is good. It surely sucked.

The budget for Paris got bumped up a bit. Only 700$...but hey, that's 700 more dollars.

I think my dad might be able to score me a flight with some of his frequent flier miles. It won't be the most luxurious or direct flight...but it will be free. That's all I could ask. I am super appreciative.

I have a lot less due this week. Next week will make up for it by killing me. Such is life. I'm going to enjoy this week though.

I saw a ridiculously hilarious movie this past weekend after spending some ridicuously awesome time with some ridiculously amazing people.